The past 2 weeks have been so interesting. Sickness, Healing Conference, sleepless nights x 7, moving and on top of all that, approaching 30 weeks in pregnancy!

 

I started having a persistent dry cough just the day before the Healing Conference. I was thinking, "wow, I could experience God's healing personally. Not a bad idea" I got prayed for by Ps during the conference. Did God heal me? No. My cough persisted and in fact it got worse in the next few days. I was woken up every 15-30 minutes by the cough every night for 7 days in a row. (my poor husband woke up just as I did, but the only good thing was that he fell back to sleep much faster than I could). What's Lillian talking about? Is she giving GLORY to GOD???

 

Yes, I want to give all GLORY to God. I grew closer to Him and my faith has been refined in the past 2 weeks.

 

Lessons and experiences gained during the 2 weeks.

1. God showed me that it's more fulfilling to be filled by His love than having a "healthy" body. I mentioned that I was prayed for by Ps. That was such a sweet presence of God as he laid his hand on me. Tears started to flow down my cheek. that was such a familiar touch, the gentle and rich touch from my heavenly Father. It really doesn't matter whether I can be healed as long as I can dwell in His loving presence. What good is it to have a good and proper physical body but yet the soul is empty.

 

2. God can use anyone, the ordinary people.

In Friday life group following the healing conference. A couple of the foundation people shared that they wanted to believe God that they could be used in the area of healing. Well, I thought I would be the best person they can exercise their faith on. I told them (even half-jokingly) that maybe the reason God didn't heal me on Sunday was that He was leaving this job to them. When the 10 of them stretched out their hands and started praying for me, I just had the faith in my heart too that God is doing a miracle. And praise the Lord on that night I slept through till morning without having to wake up due to the cough. My husband was amazed at that too. I was thinking about this later on and believed that the reason God has delayed the healing was so that those that are younger in faith may get to experience God's power moving through them and thus, grow in their faith in God. As for me, I don't mind playing a part in it :))