"2 more days to go.....am I ready for 2007? How come God hasn't spoken to me much about next year? He spoke a little here and there, but I'm still waiting for something more "impactful"

 

He said, "you haven't sought me enough. Go deeper to meet Me and you'll find it"

 

 

Again, I've only just touched the superficial. Here I am, going into His throne room.

This is what I felt God was saying in the prayer meeting just then:

 

Who will go for it? (it= the big 5, 10 and 20 by 2010) He was looking for people who will not only respond by saying, "yes", but also people who are willing to pay the price for it. The price of maturing, adjusting, changing and obeying His Word. God is looking for people that will commit themselves for this challenge!

 

 

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"who desires to grow in 2007?" Almost every person raised their hands.  No doubt, everyone wants to grow, but how much do we want to grow? growing only a little bit or growing lots? It's natural to grow, but it's a challenge to grow into MATURITY. It requires commitment.  The bible has given us enough indications for maturity: discerning wrong & right, i.e. making a decision to practise what is right before God's Word; being singleminded, persevering in suffering, rejoicing in all circumstances, fruits of the Holy Spirit.... and the most important one, deepening conviction in His word which results from understanding and obeying His Word.

 

If I'm serious about growing, I need to be conscious about my thoughts, motives, attitudes, heart condition and behaviour, so to make sure that every decisions are made for them to be pleasing and honouring to God.  It's about making the right choice in my response.

 

All of these require both the grace of God and my responsibility to walk in His ways.

 

 

Ouch! 3 lessons in a row...but I thank God for His timely reminder and I know it is wise to receive warning from the Holy Spirit!!

 

Lesson 1

Desire for prominence:

"prominence" was the first word I heard when I stepped in. Was that what I'd been thinking about. I'm sorry God for times when I allowed the desire for prominence rather than You to be my motivation. Who am I to take your glory? Don't even think about that. I can do nothing apart from You. Lord, teach me to fear You and have a pure heart and motivation so that You can use me.

God also spoke to me about His call for me that I've been called to invest my life in disciple making. As I decided to respond to His call, I was well aware of the "things" I need to give up. There's no point for me to compare myself with others, those in and those out of church, because our callings are different.

It's nice and not wrong to buy brand new cars, progress in career, have a lifestyle ...but deep in my heart I know that wasn't what God's called me to do so...at least not at this point in time.

 

Lesson 2

Laziness:

I didn't think I was a lazy person by nature, but as I let HS point to me the areas needed improvement, I realized that I might have slackened. Outwardly I look busy, inwardly I may be loosing the desire to be diligent as the festive seasons draw near.  I repent!

 

Lesson 3

Deal with it!!

What are the areas in my life i'm yet to deal with? Character, attitude, desire........I've come to one conclusion: no excuse, no procrastination, no if's or but's , I can't hide, can't cover up, if there are grey areas, let His word draw the line for me...live my life as a true WORSHIP unto Him...

 

These all come down to one thing, that is I'm His child, His instrument, His salt and light to the world. So BE ONE!!

 

 

" Man looks at the outward appearance, but God looks at the heart." How did you feel when you first read this verse?

 

Honestly, I remember feeling uneasy about the verse when I first read it. I felt uneasy because I realized it's more difficult to deal with the heart than the outward appearance. It's so easy and quick to put on make-up, dress up to make one look good. Our ministry, service and work in church is so visible. Yet God counts all of that nothing if I don't have the right heart! "obedience is (indeed) better than sacrifice" to God.

 

I felt uneasy because I realized that i could not hide my true heart condition from Him. I could cover that up from men and even myself by doing and saying the right things on the outside, but God is interested in what's going on in my heart and mind.

 

I felt uneasy because I realized too often I look at the "outward" rather than the heart, thus realizing how far I am from godliness.

 

My heart is a wellspring of life. It can be deceptive. God, help me to guard my heart against any offensive ways. Keep me humble prn (=when required). Let me know what you're thinking. Prompt me by the Holy Spirit immediately whenever I'm about to go off tangent, so that I will never hurt You. I don't want to hurt You God. Isn't that selfishness that I only look for You for comfort  yet do not consider how you feel? Isn't that selfishness that I continue sinning because I think I can't help being that way? what about You, God? Will anyone care to consider how you feel?

 

If not for You grace and enduring love, I would have perished long ago.

 

You see everything under the sun. It's foolish of me to act as if you didn't know what's going on in my heart. This I believe is the fear of God: to honour You not with the "outward" me, but with the "inner" me.

 

I love You God. I do love You. Although sometimes I fail to, I do care about how you feel....:) THANKYOU4URGRACE&LOVE

 

 

 

"Where there is no revelation, man will cast off restrained"