I'm not sure why God spoke to me about this....but the realization of the truth humbled me.

 

The purpose of me writing it down is to REMIND MYSELF...so if you read it, it's fine...i just pray that you'll be able to grasp the concept too.

 

Eternal God created man for his intended lifespan. Since God self-exists, that is, He is NOT created. He doesn' t need to be created even though we're used to the idea that everything in the world is created, everything starts from somewhere, sometime.

 

It is futile to ask the question about who created God or where did God come from. We demand an answer to the question only when we hold on to our current worldview, where we believe that  there HAS to be a beginning for everything. Yes, it's true that there's a beginning for everything on earth, BECAUSE God created all.  But this doesn't apply to God at all.

 

What came first? Eternity has ALREADY existed when "time"  is formed. God's timeframe, that is eternity is already there before man hooked on to their "beginning to end" concept.

 

So, what's the answer? Who created God? There's no answer to it because the question itself is invalid.

 

For example, imagine you're sitting in an exam and you were told by the examiner that you won't need to answer the question because there's mistake in it. Yey! 1 bonus mark!

 

The TRUTH

GOD is the alpha and omega. He has been there all along. He doesn't need to be created by anyone or anything. (that's what made God GOd), but creativity comes from Him first.  Just as He said to Job, "where were you when I created heaven and earth?" 

 

 

Let us come with humility, knowing our stand as fallible men before the eternal creator, to recieve His PERFECT, LOVING and ETERNAL TRUTH.

 

I feel blessed to be part of the cg today.

 

Ice-breaker

Passing M&M's with a spoon held in our mouth?! Wow..it really tested our patience and persistence, but it was very fun!!

 

Praise & worship

They are inexperienced. we had a first-time backup singer who is only a few months' old christian, a 2nd or 3rd time musician who didn't have much music background, and a worship leader that dared to be undignified for God. I could see the heart of praise and worship, their boldness and just that simple heart of willingness and availability. I know that God is pleased to hear worship that comes from the hearts of His people. As we sang, "Majesty, Majesty, Your grace has found me just as I am....." I immersed myself in God's sweet presence, surrounded by His grace and love. All I could think of was that I wanted more of Him.

 

Testimony

Our 2-month old new believer gave her testimony. The delivery wasn't smooth, but what she shared was ....ummm..."convincing, from the heart, simple and SWEET" It was about God answering her "small" prayers like getting the bus to come, holding back the rain so that her clothes could be dry....what touched me the most was that even God did not answer her prayer to stop the rain straight away, as she was worshipping Him in His presence, she decided to ask God again. And God is so sweet that He took care of her and her CLOTHES!! when the rain was pouring while we had our church anniversary last Sat, God kept the little suburb where she stayed "dry".

 

Bible discussion

There is real power in praising and thanking God! When all of us started to count God's blessing one by one, our perspectives changed, our burdens were lifted, and we became thankful for God. We could start to look into the current challenges or the future with confidence, peace and trust in Him. Sharing to each other about what are the things about THEM that we'd like to thank God for, taught and reminded us to appreciate every single person, to see the strength rather than weakness of the person. It was such a joy to observe different ones share in their small groups.

 

Someone asked, "how are you?"

One of the younger members gave me a big pat on my back, "hey, haven't talked to you for so long"...we had a good time of catching up. she shared with me her walk with god and I encouraged her. You know what, I was very glad because we could still chat openly despite my position in church. come to think of it, I'm her grandx3 shepherd. Haha, who said that leaders are scary? we are  approachable and we want to be approached!

 

BirthdayS celebration

"signs of old age?" said someone...yes I guess so...as I really forgot that this is now OCT.

 

What's in our future? Our future is in His Hand

I'm almost certain that the growth of this group will not be smooth-sailing, people are starting to return home, some are still deciding whether to stay or go back, some are still learning in their commitments and priorities, and there are yet areas the leadership can learn to improve and mature. However, our hope is secure in the Lord. What He's started in this group and all the individuals in it, He will COMPLETE it.  Ministry is not about having a fully functional, efficient organization, it's about growing, learing, trusting and investing one's life in what God calls "the answer", His CHURCH that contains his manifold wisdom. The realization of such priviledge will transform the way we think and live.

 

It's only when I learn to put on the heavenly perspectives, to take on the heart of God, and to see things in His light rather than the dullness of my mind, will I experience His joy deep in my heart as I serve Him and His people. A continually renewed passion and purpose in God is what's needed for His ministers.

 

 

 

The discussion leader asked what I I will say or do when I see God in heaven.

 

As I thought about the question, I could feel the emotions welling up in me. What would I say? I tried to imagine myself standing before God...I burst into tears....."I've overcome. I've run so hard and I've finally finished the race. Did You see how hard I tried to hold on to it? Will You say, "Good and faithful servant"? That's all I want to hear."

 

I pray that I will continue to rely on His grace as only His grace can sustain me.

The race that I'm in is designed for me and me only.

It's not a race for me to win, but it's for me to finish.

Jesus has gone ahead and won the race for me

I just need to follow him and reach where He is.

It's all worth it. He's worthy of it.

 

Help me to live a life of legacy

to hear You say, "Good and faithful servant" at the end of it.