That was the quietest new year's eve ever. I did the count down lying on my bed with the little one sleeping soundly next to me. It wasn't bad at all coz that allowed me to have some quiet moments to listen to Him.

Some of the things that I hope and pray to accomplish in 2008. I believe there're more to come as He reveals His will to me progressively.

 

1. Minister to the group of special needs ( don't know what that is yet)

2. Rekindle my passion for the G.C. To support church planting with conviction.

3. .........(not disclosing at the moment)

4. Better attitudes!

 

Talking about better attitudes, man, that's challenging and it's never been so challenging ever since I became a mum. :) Just a few days ago, I think I got the rhema word when I was pondering over what I read in Acts. "REJOICE OVER HIS SOVEREIGN WILL" It's easy to rejoice when things are working well. Will I rejoice at all times? Even when situations are seemingly bad, He is sovereign over them. Sometimes a sweet spirit doesn't come easy.  Maybe it's the bitterness that makes one appreciate sweetness....what am I talking about?! "BLOOMING IN AND OUT OF SEASONS" Where have my convictions gone? I feel that God's bringing me to the next phase of spiritual maturity. I'm yet to see the breakthrough, but before I can see it, I feel as if I'm.....I can't even find ways to describe it....stuck? going round in circle? losing momentum? blur? Simply tired?

 

First day of 2008 has already brought many testings in preparation for what is to come. As I need to wake up every few hours at night to feed, I tend to dream more and usually I'll have different dreams in a night. The 2 dreams I had last night weren't great at all. They'd affected me until mid-day. In a way they reflected my worries. I woke up feeling tired, as usual, with aches all over. Elise was fine I believe, (I just assumed that was the amount of crying she has during the day. I just don't get to see it as I'm at work) But it just struck me again that it's a "ONE step forward, TWO steps backward" thing with babies...sleeping issues and feeding battles are like good friends that have agreed to take their turn to knock persistently on the door of impatience till she appears. BUT, LOVE IS PATIENCE and a mother should be able to unconditionally love by having unlimited patience. :) Finally, I resorted to cool down with a cup of Cookies N Cream ice cream :)

 

Yah...what kind of attitudes did I have today? It was a fight between emotions and mind. Pressure and stress are inevitalbe, but a sound mind and sweet spirit are my choice. PERSEVERE Lil!! God help me!